Sunday, April 27, 2008

I don't want to rain on your parade...


so I don't think I'll be updating the blog much.

I am going through some rough, rough times at home and I have nothing positive to share with you.

I know I read the blogs I do, cause they fill me with inspiration and they let me get to know their authors a little better.

Right now, I have nothing inspiring or happy to put out in the world.

I am tired, I am very disappointed with my self and with the choices I have made.

I wish I could back in time and think twice...

I no longer see a person I can be proud of when I look in the mirror, and I don't have the will power or the strength and motivation to do anything about it.

I am bracing myself for a fight, and I am hoping against hope that I come out with as little scars as possible. Wish me luck...

That's all I have.

26 comments:

Damaris said...

Dearest Anilu:
I am so very sorry you are going through such a bad patch. Please know you are in my prayers. Sometimes life throws us some unexpected circumstances in which we are debilated and we can not see clearly...I pray that you find, peace and serenity quickly.
HUGE HUGS!!!

Natalie said...

I'm sorry to hear that life is difficult at this moment. Sending hugs your way and hoping everything will be better soon. I'm here if ya need to chat.

***Paola*** said...

Ok now you are worrying me amiga. You are an amazing person and for the life of me I cannot imagine why you are feeling this way about yourself. Please know that I'm behind you and you are loved. Hugs to you.

Barbara said...

Amiguita, things will be better soon. I pray that God's peace & love surround you. Remember, He never let's us down ; ) I love you!

Vanessa, Florida, USA said...

I love you girl!!! Have faith and pray because I know that God will help you find peace. You are a smart, beautiful, strong woman with a wonderful family and friends that are here for you. Don't ever forget that!!!

Breanne Crawford said...

huge hugs to you, Anilu. i just want to let you know that we, your friends, are here in good times and in bad and if you ever need to vent or cry or anything, please feel free to email me or post or anything. sending you all the love in the world and hoping that you find peace.

jeriray said...

"This too shall pass."

I love your blog, you will be missed here until your return! Sending strength and positive vibes your way!

Dan said...

Anilu, please know that I'm thinking of you. I'm sending lots of prayers & love your way.

Abrazos!

Aline said...

Anilu, I am so very sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad. I am thinking of you and sending lots of love. If you need anything, please don't hesitate to send an email!

Ami said...

Sorry to hear that you are going through a battle.
Be strong and brave.
You will overcome whatever is weighing down on you. God Bless you!!!!!

moonlightgrrl said...

Anilu, I always see so much light in you. I know it is there even now and it will help you through this rough spot in your life. I read your blog all the time, and I have to comment on this one... please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. God bless!

Greta Adams said...

{{{{big hugs sweets}}}}}
things will get better for you...just try and think positive...

if you need to chat i am just a phone call or email away!!

big love girly!!

walesk said...

awww Anilu! I'm sorry you're feeling this way. you are an amazing girl and I hope you feel much better ASAP (((hugs)))

Caroline said...

**hugs** anilu!

Tiffany said...

Oh Anilu! I am so sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. I am thinking of you today!

Kathy said...

From a complete stranger...though I feel like I know you from your work. (which is awesome and inspiring) So sorry to hear you are having a tough time. Hang in there. Choices are often tough and sometimes have to be made so quickly or based on what the circumstances are at that time (and they always change).

Special people like yourself (and I know you are) have good things in store....Believe in yourself and what you are capable of....Hang in there

Many hugs to you....

Barb said...

Anilu -
Sorry things are rough right now. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help.

Colleen said...

oh mija, i am so sorry that you are unhappy and going through something right now. maybe someday you'll look in the mirror and see the incredibly talented, beautiful woman that i see, but until then un gran abrazo para ti. please let me know if you need anything. mwah

Victoria said...

Several years ago I found myself in a similar spot. What you wrote is exactly what I was thinking. Hang in there and pray a lot. Understand that we are human and are not perfect. We will make mistakes because that's our nature. God will soothe your soul if you ask for his help.

Lily said...

Sweetie I hope you find the strength and courage to deal with this situation. I'll be praying for you.

Rita said...

Anilu. What's going on? I have been so busy myself, I'm now feeling guilty I didn't check in earlier..... My hugs and prayers are with you. Whatever it is. Call me. xo

ricanlaw said...

Oh my dear, it worries me to read this. Is there anything that I can say or do to help?

Elizabeth aka ScrappinQueen said...

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those girts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance,praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.

Huge Hugs!

Nicole Carro said...

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through some tough times - sending some positive vibes your way and hoping things will get better soon.

Monica said...

oh anilu...i'm so sorry you are having such tough times.
we'll still be here when you come back :)

lots of hugs and positive thoughts coming to you.
xoxo

Anna M-W said...

I am so sorry that I wasn't around for this. I hope everything is better now.

Chin up. You are a strong woman!

Love you!

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